*awkward hai*

Hi. Its been a year and a half maybe. Its 2015. Like omg. I can't believe I didn't update here wait post something here. Idk whr to start. A lot had happened in this well almost 2 years. I've graduated. Yeay! Tq God for that. Haha. And my Malay language kinda suck, again. Lol. Haven't use it in a very long time. So excuse my language since I don't even use English language anymore. (Both are not my main language)

What else. Ahh. In case ure wondering. No. I didn't continue my study. I didn't continue anything. I just put my life on hold this couple of years. I'm at home. Eating, sleeping, waking up the next day and gaining weight. Lol. People around me keep nagging and forcing me to do something with my life. Get a job. Continue study. Get married. Do something!!! I just look at em with my pairs of big eyes while eating chips and say nothing.

People are kinda get frustrated and maybe disappointed seeing how i live my life. I didn't even want to get out from the house. I just idk. Do nothing. But I guess what they didn't realize is my feelings. I'm happy now. Compare to the past few years whr I studied at Perlis and traveling around Malaysia with my dad kaching. I'm more happier now. I'm happy being a loser that didn't do anything amazeball that worth something to post in social networking.

I'm happy. That's what I think the most important things are. I didn't have to live my live keeping up with the latest trend so people would think that I'm so up to date. I don't have to torture myself everyday studying at some fancy university so I can brag to other how smart I am. I dont have to work as someone with fancy status at some fancy workplace so people would think that I succesfull in life. I don't have to hang out at the crowded place so people would think I'm super famous. I didn't have to live up to anyone expectations. I guess I'm a loser. But a happy loser that don't give a shit anymore.

The truth of the matter is. I used to give a shit. I care what other people think of me. I want people to think highly about me. All that shit stated above. I care about every single of it. Including fashion food music status place friend. I care about all of this shit. Well used to. I've grown up and I know all that shit is not important as it used to be.

I can't argue with people who think I'm a loser now. Even if I do argue with you. I'm already to far away. When we are done arguing. You are still right here and I already gone.

I'm loser. Are you?

sem 6

assalamualaikum

" hai .. saya student dr uitm arau perlis part 6 "

omg !! kau tau x apa prasaan aku bila ckp ayat kt atas uh ?? mcm2!! weyh aku xsgka la aku dh part 6 .. 2 tahun stgh tggu bru dpt gelaran part 6 ni .. senior .. uiseh .. trasa tua eyh matang skjp ~ haha ~

xlma lg .. skjp je lg .. brapa bulan je lg .. eyh lupa plak bgtau .. aku ukan kt uitm skrg .. aku tgh practical la .. kt ipoh perak .. amek kau .. jauh x mlompat tmpt aku practical .. cbb msuk sem bru je trus practical (actually kmi start awal smggu) .. susah utk aku terima status ku sbgai pljr part 6 skrg ni ..

tp bila mngenang kn bln 10 ni adalah hri terakhir ku sbg pljr dan nk graduate suda .. haihhh .. cpat2 la msa blalu .. aku dh penat tggu weyh .. tggl nk ambk sijil je lg .. ckit je lg .. stu lgkh je lg .. boleyh eyh tipu dri sndr mcm uh ?

p/s : puasa pun belom . aku dh bli tiket raya ~ hee ~

290513

Assalamualaikum

tepat jam 00:00 am pd 29 hb May 2013 .. bermula la perjalanan ku sbg wanita .. oh my .. wpun mempunyai "baby face" (hehe) .. nmun num pd ic xmampu menipu sesiapa yg hingin menengok ic ku krn xpcy kn umur ku kini .. mngs kuat2 .. aku sndr sukar utk pcya .. begitu skjp aku rsa msa tu blalu .. bak kta kak long .. "cpatny msa bjln, mcm mok kiamat dh" .. eyh2 pndy2 sja kak long ku ini .. aku blom kawen lg .. bru ckup umur utk mgundi ..

kau lihat la pada gmbr birthday cake ku itu .. brp batang lilin berwarna merah jambu tpacak di sna ? jgn .. jgn kau lihat lilin seperti tnda soal itu .. hny prhiasan .. ah .. 2 batang lilin bsar .. sebatang lilin kecil ..

yup2 . umur ku perwatakan ku rupa ku ialah 16 tahun ........... selamany dlm jiwa ku ~ heee